You Need a Miracle

I was having a conversation today with someone I care about and they said, "You need a miracle for this move to really work out" and all I could do was agree.  But miracles still happen today, right?  If everything always made sense to us, or is clearly laid out, would we ever have to exercise faith?

Today I spoke to the financial aid office at ORU and found out that thus far, I have received $17k thus far in federal and school aid.  There are additional steps I need to take, but I am very confident in the financing of my school obligations.  My biggest concern now is, "Where am I going to live and how am I going to pay for it?"  We actually talked about that today and I have a few options that will be solidified next month.

Oh yeah, I have a job interview!!!  That's great news

More to come...

Deal with IT

It's summer time and my favorite guy is living with me...my nephew!  It's our time to have fun and just be, but we both sort of processed through an important life lesson yesterday. When he's at my house, it's his responsibility to take the trash out.  He has to empty all of the trash cans, take the trash can out of the garage and replace all of the trash cans with fresh bags.

The first couple of times I'd walk around the house with him ensuring that he got everything, was able to open the garage door and replaced all trash bags.  Well yesterday he had to do the process by himself.  He did everything great until he had to lift the garage door and potentially touch one of the many spiders (or their webs) that surrounded the door.  He pleaded with me to open it for him.  Then he  nearly begged for me to open the door partially for him because he is extremely afraid of spiders.  He HATES them.

I was tempted to open the garage door for him because I know what it's like to be afraid of something.  But I didn't.  There are plenty of things that we are going to be afraid of in life.  Sometimes we will have help as we deal with them, but sometimes we won't and we need to have enough within us to endure and complete the task.  He cried, fought and begged.  But then....he became resourceful.  He found a hanger, cracked the door, swipped the bottom of the door free from spiders & webs and found a large stick to help him open the door.  He completed the task and realized that he had everything within him to get it done.

For as much as I want help on certain aspects of this journey, or have someone else do it for me all together; I have to muster up everything I have within me and get it done.  Putting on my "big girl panties," trusting in the direction of the Lord and being resourceful helps us realize that we are not as weak as we might think.  We have to stop running from fear huh?

Care & Concern

Wanna know if people actually care about you??  See if they challenge your decisions and choices in life.  When your ideas and "final decision" for your life regarding a matter are questioned and challenged, it is a HUGE indicator that you are loved a LOT!!

I totally know that I'm loved based on how today has gone.  You know what love is?  It's care, concern, the desire to protect, it's attempting to alleviate pain and hardship, it's wanting to ensure the growth and safety of the person that you care about, it's commitment!  Our feelings regarding a person will change. One minute we are happy with them and then the next minute we can't stand them.  But, when we genuinely love, our commitment out weighs our feelings.

I am one loved person!

And we know.....

I'm headed to Tulsa, OK for my Whole Person Scholarship Interview.  For those that don't know, because of my current GPA and number of credits that I've earned, I am eligible for a $20,000 scholarship that will 99% cover the cost of my tuition and books.  I'm pretty excited about it actually as I feel like everything that I've been through with school has prepared me for this opportunity.

I have to go for an interview & assessment with the scholarship committee at the end of the month.  As anyone knows, airline fees change rapidly so I was just praying that the cost would stay (or even decrease) at a price that I could afford.  I booked the flight but read through the confirmation carefully and realized that I booked the wrong date.  Immediately I called Expedia to see what I could do.  Turns out I was able to cancel the flight.  The cost of the correct dates was $572 and that was WELL above what I could afford so I got creative.  Instead of flying into Tulsa, I looked at other major cities.  I'll spare you the boring details, but I booked my flight to Wichita, KS and I'll drive down to Tulsa for $302 which was WAYYYYYYY less than my initial flight.  With the savings I was able to book & pay for my hotel as well.  What seemed like a horrible mistake actually worked out in my favor...
and we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to HIS purpose (Romans 8:28).

I found a check!

I was going through my drawer at work today deciding on what I needed to keep and what needed to be tossed; and, you won't believe what I found.....a check!  Wanna know how much it was for?  It was for $383!  It was an insurance refund that I never cashed back in 2009 (actually I never opened the envelop). I called the company and they are re-issueing the check and I should have it shortly.  This is huge because I have to pay for my plan ticket, hotel and car to Oklahoma for my scholarship interviews and assesstment at the end of the month.

It's coming in guys.  Slowly but surely I'm going to get everything that I need for this journey, I'm sure of it!

Silence is better....sometimes!

There is a lot that I would love to say right now, but exercising wisdom is more important than blasting someone or trying to prove a point.  Exercising wisdom and discretion is something that I've had to learn the hard way because I really like being right.  But not this time.  I just going to be silent and really listen.  I just may learn something in the process.

I Resigned Today

Today, Tuesday, June 12, 2012, I resigned from my position at First Baptist Church of Glenarden as the primary Scheduling Coordinator.  I was so nervous because it makes my decision more than just talk.  It's more than an idea to toy around with in my head.  Here we go, are you praying with me?